I found my trigger song!
So, I finally got around to watching Kill Bill, and then this music starts playing.
F---, why am I listening to this?
Backstory, back when I was living in a college dorm in a middle of nowhere town, my next door neighbors left this song playing all day. It is the whistly part of Twisted Nerve by Bernard Hermann. ALL DAY.
Maybe it was accidental, maybe he left a Kill Bill DVD on the player, open to the wrong menu. And was in class. ALL DAY. Why the hell I didn't leave my room and study elsewhere, I DO NOT KNOW. But I listened to it. ALL DAY.
I wanted to strangle my neighbors. I wanted to strangler my roommate for not coming back from class and for not checking on on our neighbors to see if they were still alive. WHY DIDN'T I DO IT MYSELF?
WHY WAS I SO SOCIALLY ANXIOUS BACK THEN?
Now that I know where this infuriating melody comes from and a probable hypothesis about WHY IT WAS PLAYING ALL DAY, it takes a bit of the edge off, but the melody still makes me angry for no good reason and gets my adrenaline pumping. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT IS WHISTLED.
The mind is a curious thing. The composition may be intentionally infuriating, given its origin.
So, now I know what to do when I need to be angry. That might be good. But so do you, now. That may be bad.
Eh, none of you save for![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
kd7sov live anywhere near me. And a few other milliwaysers besides that.
WHY AM I STILL LISTENING? AM I A MASOCHIST? STOPPIT, BRAIN.
So, I finally got around to watching Kill Bill, and then this music starts playing.
F---, why am I listening to this?
Backstory, back when I was living in a college dorm in a middle of nowhere town, my next door neighbors left this song playing all day. It is the whistly part of Twisted Nerve by Bernard Hermann. ALL DAY.
Maybe it was accidental, maybe he left a Kill Bill DVD on the player, open to the wrong menu. And was in class. ALL DAY. Why the hell I didn't leave my room and study elsewhere, I DO NOT KNOW. But I listened to it. ALL DAY.
I wanted to strangle my neighbors. I wanted to strangler my roommate for not coming back from class and for not checking on on our neighbors to see if they were still alive. WHY DIDN'T I DO IT MYSELF?
WHY WAS I SO SOCIALLY ANXIOUS BACK THEN?
Now that I know where this infuriating melody comes from and a probable hypothesis about WHY IT WAS PLAYING ALL DAY, it takes a bit of the edge off, but the melody still makes me angry for no good reason and gets my adrenaline pumping. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT IS WHISTLED.
The mind is a curious thing. The composition may be intentionally infuriating, given its origin.
So, now I know what to do when I need to be angry. That might be good. But so do you, now. That may be bad.
Eh, none of you save for
kd7sov live anywhere near me. And a few other milliwaysers besides that.WHY AM I STILL LISTENING? AM I A MASOCHIST? STOPPIT, BRAIN.
